The Fat girl moment

So I know I am not the only one who has these moments. But I just recently had a bad one. My best friend is getting married in august. I thought ok I had a baby 8 mos ago and my body is no where near what I want it to be. I have always been a bigger girl but right now I am the biggest I have ever been. Well anyways she decided since bridesmaid dresses were on sale we should go and get fitted and order ours now. Let me just say I hate shopping right now. I am bigger and not anywhere I was before kids. I really doubt I will ever get back there, but I do want to better myself and body. I have lost 30 lbs but I still want to lose more. So anyways.. I walk in to David's Bridal and her sister and our other friend is there. They are all so thin. we looked around for different dresses that may go with all body types. THEN... the consultant asked for sizes. I hear 2 for me, 4 for me and 2 for me. Then they looked at me.... 16 please. I swear I could hear there jaws drop. I just felt like the elephant in the room. LITERALLY. After all this was done and the dress was decided, all the girls wanted to go over to the mall for shoes. I thought ok. I don't really wear heels because I have kids to run after. They kept picking out these heels that were tall and skinny. HAHA ya right. Plus we are walking on grass. We are going to sink. I mentioned this and I got glared at. Her older sister is super controling. So again she picks out a shoe like i described and I tried them on. Holy crap my foot looked like a busted can of biscuts. It was not working. I think my friend could tell I was having a rough time and suggested we come back another time. I am now going to fully watch what I eat and work out. This was the worst time of my life. I have just felt so horrible about myself ever since. My husband really doesn't understand. I guess I just want to know I am not alone.